Alzheimer's song

Someone sent me this video of a song about Alzheimer's.

Hi Bert, I saw your 'Alzheimer's Dad' site. I'm a musician &; we recently completed an Alzheimer's-themed Music Video in Oregon. It's called 'The Forgotten Man' & is dedicated to my grandparents, Stan & Alma & others afflicted with the disease. Stan became 'The Forgotten Man' once Alzheimer's took hold of his wife. If this video & song can serve a purpose for anyone, please feel free to post or share. The link & lyrics are below. Thank-you for your time, Pennan. (sorry for the long lyrics...)

'The Forgotten Man' by Pennan Brae

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tyY5y7Eiyr4

Lyrics:

It’s another rainy night

In this cold shore-lined town

Water beads down my window

Dies without a sound

Leaves fly through the sky

Trees dance back and forth

Winds announce their presence

Howling from the North

Sit here silently

Watch the scene unfold

Grown man weeps utterly

Can’t believe what he’s told

His girl of fifty years

Can’t recall his name

Eyes the storm outside

Feels the anger feels the pain

If you don’t mind

Just sit low

Tell you a story

You’ll want to know

‘Bout the old man

Whose love forgot about him

He was an old man

He didn’t understand

What happened to the woman

Whose life he gave

What happened to the woman

Who forgot his name

Thunder softly speaks Past the lightning of the sky

Sunshine rays stray slowly in

Once clouds take heed and die

Hurting tears always fall

Past the strike of the heart

Tears of joy overcome

As the darkness departs

Sit here with hands in lap

Tears flow from his eyes

Want to give him all my help

Just a boy am I

He’s seen the world at war Times that caused him strife

His soul is hit again

He loses the love of his life

I’m sorry man but I don’t know what to do

I wish that I did ‘cause I feel bad for you

Though I see not the years

Of wisdom that you do

Reunited you will be

Forever in your youth

dementia from the inside

I'm a fat person.  Usually that's not very relevant to this blog and thus doesn't get mentioned much.  I lost almost 100 lbs on my own but now I gained back a little so one of my doctors has sent me for "medically supervised weight loss" which basically means shakes and bars and hardly any "real" food--and no carbs.  I'm eating maybe 500 calories a day.
I don't do well on low carbs.  I get really sick.  I call it "carb dementia".  And of course, with no carbs and no calories in me, and exercising 5-6 thousand calories a week, I'm very sick.  And I've figured out why it's so very scary for me to be this sick.
I feel like, if I ever get Alzheimer's, this is what it will be like.  Except that I can't eat half a tortilla and feel better if I have dementia.  It will be like this all the time.  And when I have carb dementia, I know it. Just like my dad knew that something was wrong with him.
I know that:

• I am stupid  (my brain is hardly working)
• I am not comprehending everything I read 
• When I write, I don't always make sense 
• My spelling is horrendous (worse than usual) and I don't recognize it if I don't have a red line telling me
• Simple tasks like assembling an air conditioner, office chair, or IKEA furniture are nearly impossible
• My hands shake when I try to do precision tasks
• When I talk, I can't remember words or names (expressive aphasia, what my dad had)
• I can't remember the point of what I'm saying by the time I'm done saying it
• I'm perpetually exhausted and have to nap like an old person
• My moods are bad; I am mean-tempered and utterly lack patience 
• I am depressed; I cry a lot and sleep a lot and have no motivation to do anything
• I stumble over everything when I'm walking, even things no sane person would trip over like a piece of paper
• If I exert myself (such as shopping in a poorly air-conditioned store) I start to grey out and get tunnel vision (I work out in a pool so I don't overheat)

The thought of living like this the rest of my life is terrifying.  The doctors want me on this diet 18-20 months.  That's almost 2 years.  There is no way I can get a job or even look for one when I can't even rub two words together most days.  When I have to take a nap like an 80 year old after the slightest exertion.  When as part of this diet I have to eat their bars and shakes every 2 hours on a tight schedule.
For instance, it took me well over an hour to compose this blog post. It should have taken 20 minutes.  I have no idea if it makes sense.  There aren't a lot of red lines so everything is probably spelled correctly.
I have to wonder if it's worth it.  To give myself temporary diet-based dementia so I can live long enough to get real dementia. 
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